(AND MANY MOOOOOOOOORRRRE!!!)

It’s 2:37 AM and i just saw the date. it’s the 20th of August 2006. That means my blog turns two today.

so let’s see what we have, shall we?

*Swair spills her blogging guts out*

Visitors ever since Aug. 20th 2004: 26, 440
People who peeked into my profile: 3177
Total number of posts: 274

now, to tell the truth, i thought i had less posts so this number is a good thing…
profile peeks? a good number.. i just expected more.. and my blog visitors? i’m very proud of that number since i don’t always expect my blog to be famous enough or popular enough for that number of ppl to peek in every once in a while to check things out..

so (as always) i’m really grateful to all those who actually like my blog, even when i’m just babbling along, ranting or just posting jokes to keep smiles on ppls faces

So i guess we’ll see what happens next year, folks

for now, nighty nighty ;D

Thank you, Zorath/Doom, for introducing them to me :p

Ladies & Gentlemen, Fort Minor:

Fave song of the moment: “Right Now”: (a download must ;p)

someone right now is leaving their apartment
looking down at the street, and wondering where their car went
someone in the car sitting at a signal
in front of a restaurant staring through the window
at someone right now with their finger in their teeth
they could use a little floss
right across the street
there’s somebody on the curb
who really needs a jacket
spent half the rent at a bar getting plastered
now he’s gotta walk 14 blocks to work at a shop
where he’s about to get fired
someone right now is looking pretty tired
staring at a laptop trying to get inspired
somebody living right across the street
just wrote the best thing that she’s written all week
but her best friend’s coughing up blood in the sink
he can’t even think
what happened?
feeling so confused
and he knows it looks bad but there’s nothing he can do
i wonder what it’s like to be right there in his shoes

but, no, i’m just taking it in
out a window of a hotel bedroom again
tommorow i’ll be gone, i don’t know when i’ll be back
but in this world everything can change just like that
like that..

I’m hoping you guys are actually downloading and listening to the music i post about here… believe me, i listen for lyrics and if i REALLY like an album/artist/song, i like to share.. and this song has a really nice beat and meaning to it (3ashaw whoever listens to songs for the moral of the story!!)…

oh, and on a totally and utterly un-related matter, i just had to cry/laugh at this..

anyways, see y’all :p

yea, so on the 12th of August, precisely 10 minutes after 12:00 o’clock, i was born… so basically the world suddenly became a better place :p

(b4 the huge happy b-day pic dedicated to myself: i would like to thank EVERYONE who tried to cheer me up.. you’ve succeeded.. and i love u all :*…. yes, i’m back to being happy :p)

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY ME!

ok, so i didn’t even know the last post actually posted since my computer was being an ass… i posted it while feeling bored and tired and every bad feeling in the book… which is a bad state to be in while ur thinking of a post since it might lead to ranting about personal things that shouldn’t be on the blog or posting weird “Official Breaks”… and it’s funny because i’ve never been through an “Official” official break… as u can see, i always come back SOMEHOW.. apparently, blogging is having its toll on me…

Now here are just some of the many things going through my mind (not in any specific order):

* Married life isn’t what i expected. i haven’t dealt with alot of men, so i don’t what goes on in a man’s mind…

* I’m hating money since it’s becoming an issue with every single thing that you think of.. and it’s just pissing me off because i’m not a material girl and i’m hating the idea of it controling any aspect in my life and the things i want to do.. why do ppl fight over money anyway? are they going to take it to the grave with them? does it make them happy? i know these questions are clichéd and alot of u who know me very well are going to lift an eyebrow since i don’t usually ramble in such a negative way… but wtf, i’m angry and i want to get crap off my chest… not real crap, just shitloads of negative energy… i’m sorry if any of this negative energy is effecting any of u, but this is my only outlet and it’s MY blog, so osh.

where was i?

* My birthday’s 2moro… i’m turning 22… i still feel the exact same thing i felt last year.. i’m still a kid, and i don’t feel like my age. what should i do now?
oh and money is also a part of this since ppl are going to be wondering what to buy me… i just don’t feel like a birthday in the first place.. gifts are nice, they make u feel special because it means ppl are thinking about u… but i’d be just as happy if someone just sent me a cute sms msg telling me that they’re thinking about me and that they’re remembering good things about me.. make me feel better with THAT, not a perfume set with lotion and shower gel, i don’t even like perfumes to begin with.

i don’t know why i’m thinking like this.. or even TYPING like this… i guess i just felt like blabbing my brains out just to get things off my heart.. brain and heart team-work… yay…

i just want ppl to care for me and at the same time just leave me alone. i don’t even get it myself. it’s funny and weird and depressing.. am i supposed to go through this EVERY birthday? this whole “feeling” started on my 21st birthday, and now i’m feeling it again for my 22nd…
will someone PLEASE tell me it’s temporary?

anyways, i’m getting bored with this and i have to go… i don’t know if it’s a break.. i’m afraid i’d say so and i come back to post something…

so this blog is now… suspended in the air between posting and non-posting.. u figure it out.