
Motherhood is better than I thought it would be..
True, I don’t get enough sleep. True, I’m achey all over. And true, his crying is heartbreaking.
BUT I have to admit that the quiet times, the mommy-son bonding moments are simply amazing.. When i hold him close, rub his back and he looks up at me with those big eyes… I really can’t express how that makes me feel.
The first 40 days after delivery (the nfas period) are a mix of things, ups and downs, highs and lows.. It’s a good thing that I’m staying at my parents’ house or else I wouldn’t have been able to vent and let it out to my mom and friends as much as I would’ve needed to.
Postpartum depression reared its’ ugly face a few times during the first couple of weeks, and it’s not pretty at all.
Hormones were flying all over the place and everything made me want to cry, and the fact that I had a slightly difficult delivery and the baby needed some extra medical care didn’t make things any better lol
It would get to the point that I would sometimes think I was a failure because I couldn’t take care of my baby when it was coming out of me or else he wouldn’t have needed that extra medical attention, THAT low.. Again, NOT PRETTY.
Now that I’m almost over all that, things are way more relaxed and baby 3alawi’s all grown up.
Then there was the food… There are a bunch of spices and foods that a new mommy has to eat during the first couple of weeks after delivery because they’re good for the body, good for the breast-milk and a whole bunch of stuff. Food like khabee9a (a sweet date-based dish), 7esoo (I have no idea what it’s made of and it’s not tasty at all), mughat (an egyptian drink, you mix it with milk and it tastes okay.. like sugar-y cinnamon-y milk) and 3a9eeda (another sweet) and gaboo6 (dough balls filled with a veggies and meat mix, swimming in soup and meat and potato pieces)..
Being a very picky eater, I wasn’t really looking forward to eating nfas food and I hated the majority of it (I only liked the khabee9a, 3a9eeda and mughat), but I just closed my eyes and had to bear it for the sake of my baby’s health.. uuugh *shivers*
Now that I’m close to completing the 40 days, I’m packing up my stuff so I can move back to my apartment.
I am not looking forward to taking care of the baby alone even though I can perfectly handle it.. I’m going to miss my mom and our shifts lol we would both get enough sleep by taking turns, so now it’s going to be all me and I’ll have to take advantage of 3alawi’s sleeping time to catch a few Zzzzzz’s.. I don’t know how productive that’ll be lol I’ll have to figure it out..
What I AM looking forward to is spoiling myself again! LOL Like all new moms, as a way of ending the 40 days with a bang, I’ll be going to the salon to treat myself with a “Happy End of Nfas Period” program.. A “new look” and everything.. A Moroccan bath, a facial, a massage, a mani/pedi, a new hair cut, dying my hair, the WORKS!
It’s the beginning of a whole new chapter in my life, so it deserves a new fresh look hehe
I’ll see you guys after everything’s settled down.. till then, this blog’s on hiatus again.. Seeya